wheah

work work work. everyday open my eyes, sigh, get out of bed, rush out of house, walk and eat bfast, arrive at mrt, eye for a seat, sleep, wakeup, run for the staff shuttle. hobble to work. wear my white coat. chuck bag into small cubby hole. sit at my station. choose a stragetic spot (normally counter 2-3 gets all the scoldings, dunno why.) logon my ID. get a basket. look at the script. look at the drugs. sigh. ring the bell. repeat the last 5 sentences ^100. end of day. sleep on train. eat my dinner. watch tv. chk mail. sleep. repeat. ughghghghghgh....

no no dont be mistaken. its not all mundane. u get really interesting characters tt spoil ur day too. those screaming patients. scolding the govt subsidies, scolding medisave. i deaf alr. numb alr. fussy patients. those tt come to u & say item 3 for 2 months, item 6 dont want, item 10 only 47 tablets. FOR GOODNESS SAKE. and those aunties tt chat with u & ask u abt this supplement tt supplement. yes u can eat it. u'll just poison urself at most. and no, i dont really know wt product u're talking about? its on tv? ah there's a million things on tv. and guess wt. do i look like i know whether guardian keeps this or not. its like asking u if ntuc keeps that particular brand of detergent. and yes, u can eat all ur tablets together. yes just put it in ur hand and gulp. dont choke. no no, this one is before food, that one is after. look i've already written it down for u. yes. LOOK here. yes. goodbye.

i'm starting to sound like a cross old woman. everyday i tolerate nonsense. everyday i fight myself to scream. and everyday i roll my eyes.

cant wait to go out with my pharm sis + chemistry cousin + lifesci lesbi. happy group who complain about work. (yeeng will join us complaining soon). yeeng's been back a month yet i only saw her at the wedding, settler's outing, shopping at orchard & a movie so far. wheah. when u're working really no time & energy for things. but i think tt its gd we're all making an effort to keep our friendship gg and meet up. there's so many frens tt just fall away after some time. i love them and hope we can stay tog and still be as bimbotic when we're 50 years old. and going.

this wk was pretty relaxing tho, i'm on normal shift. went to ntuc after work: (aunty in the making)

• co co pops cereal
  
• milk x2
  
• tub of chocolate icecream
• grapes - on sale. and pp ate the whole thing.
  
• bread

dont like wholemeal bread. but no choice. healthier choice. and i need to start drinking milk again. used to drink a cup before bedtime. i need milk.

and i feel so grumpy today. drats.

back from my 5 day KL trip to visit my cousins and their babies... and time really zooms past. actually it takes 3/4 of a day to travel to KL so actually its only a 3 day heaven...

ironically, instead of feeling refreshed (okay la, i am refreshed cos i slept alot and got rid of my eye bags) u tend to feel more lethargic & lost momentum after a trip... maybe cos u tend to wanna be on holiday forever... if only we no need to work and money drops from the sky like manna =)

oh i wish...

my niece is very cute. her voice is very high pitch.
taught her things like "i've a soft nose" then we rub noses.

lotsa nice things to eat. my cousin make 3 litres of jelly. and i ate prata and bak kut teh and lotsa lotsa things that u can possibly eat in a span of 5 days.

and my nephew who is 1 day old..
he is small

sleeping. sleep sleep sleep.

and when i came back home, my bed was in a mess with my pillows forming a 'hole' in the centre. so i smsed pp and said who sleep in my bed?! and he said its pp-bear. hahahhaa... goldilocks.

i am flower

flower came from this land. actually i dunno where this is.
yeeng u must enlighten me.
anyway this is the June picture. grand eh?

perhaps this is a concert hall. where posh grand ppl come and hear heavenly music.
and when the last encore is called, limos and smiling happy ppl pour out of the grand entrance.
imagine it in the days of old, when horse-drawn carriages pull up and the gentleman leaps down, gallantly offering his hand to the lady and she daintily steps off. whisked into magic.

perhaps its a museum, housing relics of old, paintings adored worldwide, each fine brush, each fine stroke, awed at and marvelled by countless visitors.

imagine how ppl would sit by the fountain in the cool night breeze, be it in their huge puffy skirts and crisp english, or a plethora of languages of the Tourist.

imagine the architect whose imagination and creativity drove him to build this intricacy. where did his inspiration come from? did he even start to imagine how ppl would enjoy his work? would he even have dreamed of his creation sitting here, centuries later, being adored, having countless Mr Tourist posing in front of it. being a part of a picturesque calender?

hopes and dreams

thought it interesting to have a cardboard. and its good quality cardboard too. dunno why i'm so amused by the cardboard.
photography. how it transports to u a place, brings u to a world of imagination. captures images and brings back memories. evokes thinking, for one who hasnt gone there before.

now, of course, something to eat. yumyum!

however, sadly it became fur! (fungi jungle)


thankfully this one survived. okay here goes my guess as to what these are..

joghurt = yoghurt,
vollmilch = full cream milk (its the double 'l')
haselnuss = hazelnut
knusperkeks = err.. chocolate?
marzipan = marzipan (haha)
knusperflakes = cornflakes
nugat = nougat

this lil picture. imagine seeing this in real life. sooo picturesque. nothing in singapore comes close to this, sadly. like really get Away from the City.

now, introducing, the Schokolade Zusammen

Schokolade Zusammen

this is the chocolate family. heehee.
actually fungi in themselves are a work of art.
dont look at this picture and go eww.
think instead, of them feeding on the rich liquer, dark creamy chocolate
oh lucky fungi
all nestled closely together, warm and snug
would u think me crazy if i say
the chocolates look happy

snow white & biconvex

(looks like red-blood-cell)

sugar-rush & swirly-whirly

caramello & stripey

(but actually its not caramel.)

crunchie-munchie & blockhead

okay i'm officially gg nuts, i'm even naming my chocolates.

anyways, this is from wiki:

Cocoa or dark chocolate benefits the circulatory system^[50] Other beneficial effects suggested include anticancer, brain stimulator, cough preventor and antidiarrhoeal.^[51] An aphrodisiac effect is yet unproven.

A study reported by the BBC indicated that melting chocolate in one's mouth produced an increase in brain activity and heart rate that was more intense than that associated with passionate kissing, and also lasted four times as long after the activity had ended.^[52]

Chocolate is a mild stimulant to humans mainly due to the presence of theobromine.^[77] It is much more potent for horses, and its use in horse racing is prohibited.

... and of course, its chemical compounds...

• Theobromine, the primary alkaloid in cocoa and chocolate^[75] and partly responsible for chocolate's mood-elevating effect
• Tryptophan, an essential amino acid and precursor to serotonin
• PhenethylaminePh, an endogenous alkaloid sometimes described as a 'love chemical;^[76] it is quickly metabolized by monoamine oxidase-B and does not reach the brain in significant amounts
• Caffeine, present only in very small amounts^[75]

wonder if my patients on MAO-B inhibitors would hv any issues so far with chocolate. i know tt they need to avoid tyramine-containing foods but perhaps the chocolate bit is insignificant. does it mean tt this patient who eats tonnes and tonnes of chocolate would be really 'lovely' cos the P.Ph doesnt get metab? heh...

pharm sisters, rem tt time in lab when we had to make those theobroma oil suppositories for pharm practice? that time the whole lab smelt of white chocolate lor.. so yummy..

today, one year of working in nuh...
yesterday, our names were officially up on the board...

were school times really that long ago?

today i got a pwesent.

i want to be a Goretex material.

today a drunk patient screamed at me. really screamed at me. he approached my counter then shoved his ticket at me. irritated alr. when asked to approach another counter cos i had 2 patients in queue he started screaming. really screaming. AL then rescued me. she said she can smell alcohol & his face was red. anyway. i was soooo ____. ughghghghg. whatever. roll eyes.. tho i wanted to run to the back and cry. just picked up my next basket.. needless to say the other patients were extremely nice. love this sympathy. pathetic soul. then hy & jess bought me chocolate eclairs to eat. then flower feel big better.

mayb i shld blog abt nice patients. then wun feel so delusional nor delude others. and i shld learn to stop replaying incidents in my head. sigh.

trudge home. dark skies, big wind. swaying trees. had this dream about trees last last night. it was a tree with yellow leaves. and i just stood under it and looked up and could see bits of blue sky. and the wind passed thru the tree and its leaves gently swished to the floor.

fluctuating emotions

not really. just feel like a steady grump. day in day out. work. home. eat. tv. sleep. next day again. the peak is not too high either, there's this ceiling that dampens. just like how u cant breathe fast enough when u're running even tho u wish to. why is that so. protective mechanism to prevent hyperventilation, overstressing the heart. but in the end u still paining cos of the lactic acid buildup. why is it a sine curve when inevitably we fall into a trough. its not even a sine curve, its more like a huge deep valley surrounded by short hills. not mountains. hills. sometimes the sunshine gets blocked by the hills. but can one remove hills? it is written that faith the size of a mustard seed can move even the mountains.


went for 2 weddings last wk, i rephrase, it was 2 weddings in 3 days. one was my colleague, the other was huixin & mingwei. just imagine when u see "hxmw" in emails in future u'd know exactly wt it was referring to. it will always be a pair. no longer a single entity. inseparable. together now. best friends. confidantes. lovers.

their grand entrance (check out the ruffles on her dress)
NO i'm not talking about the potato chip Ruffles.

during the hxmw wedding hx made a very touching speech. of how mw hates to go on roller coaster rides but the journey with her has been a rollercoaster. the way she said it. brings tears to the listener's ears. how her voice shook with emotion. and how mw took over the mic & said tenderly tt all he wanted was for her to be happy then sang a chinese song. sorry i dunno wt song. some love song. in his nice voice. really 10/10. really very touching.

chk out her pink gown. she forbid us to wear pink to the dinner, now i know why
ahhh.. and chk out the back.

their happy ending
...and beginning

this is the 2nd happy couple. (in the photo. of course). once again, her dress is spectacular. really alot of cloth. very waaahh-effect. esp the long long train. if only ppl dress like this all the time. why only during weddings?


and.. these are the happy "partners". partners for 9 months of gruelling training hhaha.

and here we are..

so many fairytale weddings.


weddings are made of...
flowers and candles
veils and satin dresses
merry and pomp
wine and song
faith
hope
love