today i went for the reverie gig at lt13. ok lt13 is mistake no.1. how can one ever stage a rock conc in an lt. the acoustics suck lor. it bounds, then rebounds at u. reverberations. gosh. ear drums paining. when we reached a lull in btw the songs, its the post-jamX wong-wong sound in ur ear... so shiok man. so shiok. reverie has changed.. yes still got creed (whooo hoooo) & bon jovi (whooo hooo) now they played metallica & cradle.. becoming more hard core.. yeeng was traumatised. & at sing-along audience participation parts i screamed along, yeeng trauma. and tt guy, the lead, he still has it. totally. he struck all the poses tt can b struck. & he has an AMAZING DEEP voice. i wanna faint. still. awww.. faints. very creed-ish. showmanship, they really hv progressed. the instrumentation was amazing!!! quite proud to see, since days of jamX, they are rising from obscurity to some fan base & recognition tt they so deserve! i hope tt Dead End & Stentorian, one day too, will make it big!

it wasnt really full blown rock concert - how could it b if its in some lt. for goodness sake. cant even shake along without rocking ur whole row of ppl. like how u jiggle ur leg & whole row feels it. wrong. rock concerts must stand up, tap feet shake head wave arms give side looks hand signals. and i miss drain and one smell. this kinda theengs cannot go with yeeng. she had a pained expression. must go w my best fwens drain & one smell. but yeeng thx for gg and being pained in the process.. u are nice. i think real fwens is like, sticking by u tho they feel pained. like if it was a choir concert or smth i will walk out. i will. danke yeeng..

when we went for jamX prelims on sun, it was so fun.. drain + one smell + yeeng = fun. one smell keep calling drain a 'cock'. (with curt pronounciation) & drain was saying 'shuddup' (with try-2-b sei pronounciation) at a rate of 2 words per minute. quek was doing this awful hand signalling.. really very bo-sei. haha. i followed. and drain, my best fwen for ever and ever, got bullied & went ard snapping pix of the animators at my request. (actually drain v poor theeng. i forced him to walk to e front to snap pix). hee. thx drain!!!

now the animators are like so totally cool. ok their name is sucky, but this new band from new york is smth. levan from ronin asked them to play for jamX so tt was so cool.. they sounded great live... vocals are amazing man. amazing. the 'good to be here' song is classic man. & there's this yeeng-&-i-love-it song 'how do i get over u' where he whispers into the mic, heartfelt, & whines... aww...heart stop beating fainting melt

i got their cd, autographed and all. now didnt i say i wun buy anymore cds.. haiya faints. anyway, investment. investment. but the cd doesnt really justify their vocals. live is still the very best. the mood. the atm. all diffuses, yes diffuses over to u. u get high. so happy!!! went to hear two great bands in a week! utter deprivation for ever sooooooooo long. this wk i am spoilt. i am back to rock. yes. (chk out drain. he looks AWFUL) chk out the chinese guy, cute. the dude in brown lines his eyes. electricute me. (spelt by srh the to-be engineer who cant spell).

If you're listening.

Sing it back.

String from your tether unwinds.

Up and outward (but only) to bind.

I was spinning free

with a little sweet and simple numbing me.

Are you listening?

Sing it back.

So tell me what do I need

when the words lose their meaning.

I was spinning free

with a little sweet and simple numbing me.

Yeah, stumble until you crawl.

Sinking into sweet uncertainty.

If you're listening.

Are you listening?

Sing it back.

I'm still running away.

I won't play your hide and seek game.

I was spinning free

with a little sweet and simple numbing me.

What a dizzy dance.

This sweetness will not be concerned with me.

No the sweetness will not be concerned with me.

jimmy eat world

1830-2215hrs : mc mtg
2330-0100hrs: mtg II
0100-0345hrs: mtg III

happy bday xQ. today was so fun in genki. my best fwen one smell and my best fwen drain are the best. really the best!!! the ideal guy would b a cross btw the both of u. and the bests are also my gal fwens huirei & yeeng. and xQ. haha. i luv u guys!!!! happy bday xQ!!!! =)

one smell msn me: "heh u'll always be my best fwen no matter wat!!".

i'm a kwokernaden too!!! my 2nd night at kwok... finally! yes cheek & i went to cry at osa on tues.. haha... it works! did a bit of acting & told the rest tt i havent gotten anything.. and i managed to super-bluff one smell. he was so so shocked, i've nv seen him so shocked b4, & i died laughing at his shocked face. hee. trickster.

cleaning up is always horrifying, esp the shit u find. but kwok had cleaners come in before so it wasnt tt bad. & i almost died trying to lift the cupboard. major rearrangement of room gg on. the room's so small. i scoot out my chair it touches the bed. pgp is much bigger. & my room at home is like 4 times the size. haha.

my clothes are still in my bag. havent unpacked yet. i feel like i'm living in slow motion..

and... sometimes i dunno wt u are thinking.

Busy-ness! CSC Day final mtg.. yes. one smell had this incredibly funny ‘lecture notes’ for his final mtg.. & it was serious, brief, yet lighthearted.. one smell behind e wheel, I am so proud of u!!! the oc I feel, at the edge of the event, can feel them bordering on e brink of excitement… & after tt a bunch of us ran (yes, ran) to kent vale to catch a taxi to funka. Mer’s fault, he started screaming & running.. haha.. excitement! Funka! Nus is so so irritatingly DEVOID of all taxis after 8pm. that totally totally sux. Pls. If u are a taxi driver, pls pls pls go to nus. Huge stupid-taxi-deja-vu. Everyone will love u. pls.

Anyway. We arrived at funka to catch the last bit of the last dance. Like a gd 5 mins. Pls. FAINTED. So disappointed. Like running from yih to kent vale, then running across taka not humiliating enuff, pls gimme the pleasure of catching at least one whole dance. No. sadness!!! Anyway saw this funky grp who really could pose for the camera.. yes, POSE so ultimately cool w their kohled eyes & boots. (not boobs. BooTs. Difference.) I want kohled eyes too.

One smell said I was super nostalgic – the atmosphere was electrifying, just like last yr!!! If u just close ur eyes, and imagine.. and remember!!! Oh gosh… drain!! One smell!!! Amy!!! Shyh chau!!! I miss the pomp and the glamour and the funk and the coolness.. pursed lips and frantic signals. Eye contact. Nods. Rile up the crowd. Miss it.

CSC day is over!!! Once again v proud of one smell & clarice… the event was smooth totally… & the funky gay-elephant dance is so funny.. ahha. I felt tt tt was the climax. Like everyone dancing (badly). & a small girl hugged me. I think it was a change of env for the residents, I’m sure they had fun.. esp the children.. e elderly looked amused at how crazy we were… & one smell halfway came up w this beam on his face.. yes. its all worth it!!! thx one smell for tt v nice sms (think the nicest I’ll ever get). =)

Went for crystal’s 21st bday party after tt.. wooo. Food. & crystal was soooo happy. Speaking of the nussu van. I think I may die in it one day. Jooch has bad driving. help. Ek is reckless. Like he doing a 10-point-turn outta yih. drifted at Newton circus. Drift. Change lane no signal kenna horn (scared me sitting at the back). Nussu van was spotted everywhere Holland-ing here & there.. at orchard.. at woodlands. No it wasn’t us. Wasn’t.

Post party, most of us bundled in the nussu van & suddenly everyone just went whoooooo hoooooo cos of the success (& successes) of csc day. Yes very high. Like 14 ppl in the van screaming. So high. Ek was even more reckless (yes I am still alive) skipped a red light, kenna horn again. Then mer saw his bus & asked ek to stop ahead. Racing mer’s bus. We got like 3 stops ahead. Alighted & mer asked how come the bus take so long. Erm. Cos we were like speeding? Haha.

Today my 3 hours pract became 5 hours. Stupid semi-log graph. U are the worst invention in the world.

Today xq made fun of my Chinese. Now my Chinese is what u may call, halting Chinese. Cos usu when I open my mouth to speak, ppl beg me to stop.

Sch’s in! the hols are like over! (but it so so still feels like hols). Our highly inflexible nus gave us lessons on mon (then again u can dun attend) then tues was a hol. Pls. Gimme a break. Then u hv the utter confusion of makeup lectures etc etc. starting again, (imagine head-banging rock music here). Yest huirei said our PK & drug disposition lect is like ‘lost in a sea of irrelevance’. Now tt is so accurate a depiction. Haha,

(bitching abt lectures). We have like 2-6 everyday, sadness, how am I gg to do csc stuff… & interspersed w practs in the morn. And we hv 3 practs. That’s an utter tragedy.. & the awful thing is tt we hv pharm analysis then PK & drug disposition one after the other.. I feel like I’m in hongkong. & the weather’s awfully cold! Ppl hv problems peeing cos the toilet seats like cold. Lect is cold. Feet is cold. Neck is cold. Legs are cold. But muz wear skirt if not jeans soak up the water. Singapore winter giving us Seasonal Affective Disorder. Haha.

Inertia of the 1st day of sch saw CSC day oc & SLP oc so busy in the clubrm… I feel so proud of them busying themselves.. planning packing painting cutting crapping counting wrapping. I look ard & see a sea of ppl all so busy (tried to look busy too). Manpower man, manpower. Journey back & 2 ppl fainted – esp if one took 2.5 hrs to get home. Faints.

Pharm sisters had a farewell for our foooochai & amy.. everyone is gg on SEP, haiya. Poor pharm sisters! We went to this quite ulu but richly-furnished (yes, tt is the description) Indian vege restaurant, & it was truly fun! Its quite interesting cos there are no stated prices, u just pay what u feel the price shld be.. & the food’s gd. There’s this eccentric waiter-receptionist-cashier-basically-bao-ka-liao who chided us when we asked for help to order “every meal is an adventure” & “be creative”. Then we ordered (mistake!) & got chided again for “not planning the meal” & “treating the meal lightly” & “mixing a rice-based gravy with a wheat-based dosai” or smth to tt extent. Amy said preachy. Hahha. I cant believe he really went into all tt, like, it might b a bit off, scare ppl away. Then again I think he really feels for Indian cuisine. & I must say tt it was gd, a v interesting dining experience..

So byebye to fooochai & amy.. amidst lotsa Indian accents & trying to put-words-in-his-mouth by guessing wt philosophical thing the man would say if we ordered smth else & being scared to place more orders & teasing huirei abt manhattan w amy hatching lotsa plans for us to evaluate him. Haha! Hey xQ lets put our plans into action (I am playing new-sexy-fwen to see if manhattan is faithful to huirei).

Pharm sisters. Day 3 of lectures today. Haiya..

The last week of the hols (besides a lot of fainting) was vat prep.. yes, vat, ah, the event of the mc… from the doorgifts we made during the chalet which was so sweet.. to the 1am mtg fine tuning… buying lucky draw prizes (tired!)… wrapping presents in the clubrm w a gang of ppl singing old songs.. finding photos of csc ppl (many are camera shy)… finding reception music, I so love vat! Even tho the prep was a bit hellish.. but the mc stuck thru & mass-panicked! yes.. fun!!!


Managed to squeeze in class gatherings too.. wed - 01S14 2nd row gang!! Sorry guys I was so late! Totally missed out on MANHATTAN fish; sob, was in swensens, & I walked off without paying. (faints) Jean rem my shocked-realization-face forever & ever pls. & I went back to pay and tang called me dumb. Haha. Us at mac! Like I didn’t hv enuff of icecream tt night.. yes man. Haha. Again!

Thu – my pharm sisters & my best fwen drain! Had an absolutely great time shopping @ bugis. i love bugis... I haven’t shopped at all the whole hols.. goodness.. bought this nice shoe – its SOOOOO nice green & pink. Drain was making faces. Then he eventually agreed tt its nice. Liar. And a new skirt for my sweet-image. A feeling tt this image not gonna last too long haha. I mean haha (hand cover mouth demurely & flutter eyelashes). & huirei’s had a date with MANHATTAN. No its not some angmoh guy. It’s the name of the restaurant. Haha. Go girl!!! Xq & drain & I will give u counseling. Hee.

Fri – touch had a brief grief workshop… it felt like opening old wounds again.. yeeng shared & I was so touched. Yeeng, do not ever ever say that again. Pls. *green hug* & lixian made a lot of us cry cos we didn’t do much for our new elderly mdm khng. We didn’t even say goodbye. So I dunno if we were dealing w grief or just digging up memories that wanted/needed to be buried.

& tt kinda glum-ed the rest of my day. Oh I had coffee-w-raisins. Yummy. Despite a lot of fun stuff like srh bday celeb.. fwed conned srh to walk round e suntec fountain (how on earth..) & our obedient naïve srh was happily walking, so gay, & the bunch of us yelled our from the 2nd floor. & srh also got some cake in his face. Now HAHAHA. I am so gonna get tt pix.

7th jan @ fratello’s. (sounds classy eh?)

of course VAT itself. Now VAT was fantastic, the atm was great.. minus the technical glitches, the turnout was v amazing – thx csc for being so supportive!!! Esp the old-birds-table!! Ahha. my foot was so pain - the biggest shoe blister of my life - (nemo calls it ‘your foot paining’) cos of my new dear shoes… I walked daintily. Yes. & fwed luffed at me for being gentle. Haha. Felt like a dream. everything felt like a dream. The videos done by zq & ek (at great effort) was also v heartwarming, funny, amazing, stupendous. dearest crystal.. congrats on being a gold awardee!!! my dear freshie i am sooooooo proud of u!!! u and mer, really make Pnevma proud!!! papa eejay will b so happy!!! my my... just leant againt the wall & enjoyed. yes fruit of the MC's labour! Yes that’s wt VAT is about.. =)

(me & my best fwen one smell - best funky dressed. cool.)

(jaw paining - smile too much. haha)

announcing my new "smugglement" of cheeeeeeeeeeese!!! import BATCH II!! yay!!! nothing comes close to nz cheese... awww... =) =) =)

this time also got mushrooms & corned beef & cherries & strawberries.. oh thankyou aunty pam!!! i am sooooooo happy!!!

someone told me a secret.


i am

fainting.

i hv a fwen called see ren hong. he is very funny. very very, he is clumsy and has no eyelids. i know him for one and a half years already.. in the 3rd mc he is quite shy and quiet - a nice kind boy. now he is bad boy. he luff at gals when they scream during horror movie. in fact, he threw a scissors at me when i was watching The Maid. he is a sadist.

today is his bday. zhu ni shen re kuai ler. hahha. and fwed tried to bluff him. u know, the silly thing like, hey srh, open ur flat door, outside got a present. quick go, if not the karung guni man will steal. and he WENT TO OPEN IT. i wanna faint.

Renhong - what thing?!?
*chloe - u looking for a prez
Renhong - ya lor.. u all said there is smth there mah..
Renhong - i thought really got smth there..
*chloe - haha
Renhong - juz in case there is really smth there mah...

now i realise one new thing: he is obsessed with something there. oh goodness.
(p/s: we really think he went to open it. really really.)

My hols are so packed. There’s this huge inertia to blog cos I so so so need to hibernate. I see more of my fwens than my mama. Yes. Hhaha. Well after bintan we were busy prep for the touch Xmas celeb- making xmas trees.. clever lihui.. got conned into a dance, & my partner was my best fwen one smell. Hahha. YES. & the first time we tried the dance we couldn’t stop laughing. Hahha. Me and one smell.& he step on my feet. Faint. It was some Chinese song by FIR, and lihui and clar managed to choreograph it v v well! Sweet clever gals… so proud of them & our touch dance troupe. =) hadn’t danced in ages, since our ragnaroc greased lightning & my hiphop days… so enjoyable! Our fwed also played Santa, and it was damn funny, hahha.

After tt I went to see the Narnia premier, got vip reception and all.. I felt so grand (& underdressed), thankyou nemo… the show a tad disappointing… I think u cannot take a well-loved book & interpret it as a child ever does.. it doesn’t seem so magical as one’s imagination. I felt that the characters were not characteristic enuff, but the White Witch fought wonderfully, tho not as icily as one would suppose. But she’s SO COOL. The scenery, which I was so looking forward to, was not much either, save for the battle scene. I wanna go back NZ *whine* think I’m quite spoilt nowadays, managed to watch 2 movies in this hols; e other was HP w the clubrm gang & I was scared… quite amazing, considering my last movie was Troy. Yes, laugh. Supposed to catch Perhaps Love w yeeng. Yeeng, no time!

Xmas was quiet, with reflections in Church, and we did our bit of caroling in the weeks before at macpherson.. Caroling is not very prevalent here in Singapore, which is a pity. Slp did some caroling at sun-dac, & tt was sweet… yeeng sang abt reindeer, & yeeng has a voice of an angel..

(Haha! Cheek is back!!! Welcome back cheek! He just called me & his voice is still the same – the same go-eat-shit drawl.. haha..)

Last week was crazy; we had our CSC chalet. And it was 3 nights. And I slept at 5/6am for all 3 nights. Madness! Record broken man.. the first time I stayed till 530 was when drain & I rushed out the sentosa proposal. The 2nd time was piahing natural resources assignment, also w drain. Now this triple whammy… hahhaa. (now u know why I hibernate). The first night was fun, we had a VAT mtg in the wee hours of the morning, did VAT doorgift together (really fun), went to relive our childhood at the playgrd. Hee. The next day more than half the MC went back to sch for slp, pah, csc day… quite heartwarming to see everyone back in sch for SPs, I feel so proud of their commitment & sacrifice.. ek drove us, and tt was delightful (I mean the car).. at night we played all sorts of games, like a mini-settlers, thx for ek and zq! And zin me crystal lixian watched The Maid, which was v scary, & we screamed & covered ears, nose, eyes whatever. And bad srh sit there and luff. And bad jooch grab my leg. And I screamed. & srh screamed in shock. Haha. (I nv hear guy scream b4). They are so sadistic! We are scared & they laugh. Haiya.

Did a spot of night cycling, albeit a short distance to elias mall. Butt totally hurts man. Then a few of us started discussing abt SP marketing till 6am. Yes, we are the mc at heart. Hahaha. Of all the gals, zin and I are light sleepers. I’m glad we got closer now, zin! The rest are like dead-to-e-world. Champion sleepers are carine and kianmeng. Kkl sleep still can talk one. Next day, carry on our gambling den, me gg crazy with carine (really went high) then the bbq. Not enuff food. Hungry, the turnout was amazing, w slp barrage coming down, and old seniors (birds) too. Mao, I am v touched by ur card n gift. Thx. =) thereafter, everything else to me becomes foggy cos this sleep cloud descended upon me. I recall dancing jiakai’s new dance. Its like a taogay dance. Quite funny. Oh I realize my fwen-w-small-eyes-big-ears-big-nose is a v v v tolerant person. I put a towel on his head more than 10 times without him fussing. (either tt or he tired until bochap). And quek! He listens to this rare blink182 song & we were yelling away tog, so hard to find a fan! This is by far the most xiong chalet ever… but so so incredibly fun man, so totally fun..

I feel close to the 4th mc now.. each w their own antics… very wonderful ppl, really really. Preparing for VAT, so exciting!!! I love all of u. =)

happy 2006!!! goodbye 2005!!!

a chapter closes.