leaked some weakness
days of bleakness...

this is Knut the little polar bear.

Knut was born in the Berlin Zoo on Dec. 5, 2006

see lil Knut is sleeping, so cute!!! and he even has a lil toy polar bear, white just like him.. ahh. Knut likes to face the wall when he sleeps. like jooch.

Knut weighed only 810 grams when he was born, and spent his first 44 days of his life in an incubator, after being rejected by his mother. His keeper, the dedicated Thomas Dörflein, has slept in the zoo since the birth of the bear in order to provide round-the-clock care to the cub, and feeds Knut milk six times a day with a bottle.

(I wouldnt mind being around such a cute theeng)

Knut playing with his blankie.

Lil Knut has grabbed global media attention, for animal rights campaigners feel that hand-rearing polar bears was a violation of animal rights.

(I found out about Knut from Sat's papers. if not, u dunno, very suakoo right.)

"Activists fret that it is inappropriate for a predator, known for its fierceness and ability to fend for itself in the wild, to be snuggled, bottle-fed and made into a commodity by zookeepers... "The zoo must kill the bear," said spokesman Frank Albrecht. "Feeding by hand is not species-appropriate but a gross violation of animal protection laws."

some people are just plain dumb, and fail to see the beauty of life. hide under the excuse of "protecting its naturality".

yes, i understand Knut is not a live toy, but just look at the rapport between Knut & Dörflein. Surely an "inappropriate" and "artificial" habitat with love and adoration from germans & tourists alike, would weigh much heavier than death of this small white bear.

this is the 3-and-a-half month old Knut. He first saw the public last friday, attracting hordes. i was so excited cos jooch was in berlin last weekend too. and jooch went to the zoo today. BUT. jooch didnt see him, wrong timing. i want to faint. sulk at jooch.

(ok, i'll stop sulking. back to serious reporter-style writing)
Knut has also drawn attention to the plight of polar bears as worries grow that global warming is contributing to the melting of their habitat.

German Environment Minister Sigmar Gabriel has adopted Knut and used his appearance to further the debate on climate change. "Knut is in safe hands here but worldwide polar bears are in danger and if Knut can help the cause, then that is a good thing."

(I guess he said it in more pompous words, but that's the thing with translations isnt it?)

this is Knut, i guess we'd be seeing more of his antics in upcoming days. there is just something about bears that make them so adorable and so endearing...

i love bear.

My favourite picuture of all (after about an hour doing this!)

white little bear on grass

i miss csc. the huge big family feeling. the hustle and bustle of the clubroom. always something to look forward to, to help someone with, to need help with, to do. (except cleaning the clubroom). always a friendly and familiar face in the clubroom that u can talk cock with when u are having ur break. always a lunch partner. always laughter. hysterical laughter.

i miss my mc. alot.

anyway, next mon 2nd apr is csc tshirt day, and their mailer is so cute, i spat out my water that i was drinking. thanks ah. their water-emitting-mailer:

(with the slogan: if u dun wear ur csc tshirt, u buy for what???)

Women’s Outdoor Challenge 2007

here i am, part persuaded/motivated/forced (by huiwei)/out of boredom/need-fulfillment-in-life-before-i-graduate feeling...

so i joined the 8km run.

its organized by AWARE, but i dunno for wt cause. nor wt it does. so unaware right. haha. i just know that its a women's run, so (i) wont get out-stunk/fainted by smelly guys (2)jooch wont sulk at me (3) huirei will not be too distracted and so will talk to me.

me and huiwei. heehee.

(she let me hug her so that i will stop whining at her.)

nice huiwei.

by the way, her real name is huirei. but in whiny voice it becomes huiwei.

the run was good, quite alot of ppl also running the 8km route.. so started at a slow start, dispersing the crowd.. the scenery was great, a change from like 10+ laps around SRC.. now one gets to see the sand and sea, the unkind sun, some guys walking ard, ppl walking dogs, ppl having bbq. ppl drinking water and slacking, ppl cycling. then suddenly u ask urself why are u running. cant i just sit down? haha. but it was enjoyable.

and also a challenge, cos i've nv ran 8km before. the most was 4km during kwok days with jooch denise yinggai / zhenqin engkhoon... (that pairing looks quite gay). anyway. a challenge. and a gd destressor after my 3-tests-in-a-week marathon..

this is us at the end. haha. look at the red faces. actually i didnt like the singlet, cos the fabric is weird, but now i appreciate the cutting etc, so cooling lor. managed to finish the run in 55min, quite happy cos my aim was to be under an hour.. kept pushing myself at the end, & also got a bit cheated cos i tot every next corner would be the end. haha. worked to my advantage. the sun was so unmercifully hot! shone on our faces all the way back.. but its the pace.. just dun break the pace, and it'll b alright. like wt peiling (the expert) said, run at a pace which u feel u can continue running forever. i guess tt;s the trick for running long distance..

also had a bit of schizo moments when i heard jooch behind say "arry-up" in his army-voice. he likes to bark at me when we are running. yes. bark. haha.

me at the finish line. i think i nv stand in front of a finish line before. my first race!!!

me and huiwei in front of the finish line. haha. huiwei, we did it!!! =)

this is the bag deposit. i like this photo. cos to me, its the starting, and also the ending.

the whole gang of us again.. they are halfway tearing down the finish line again. haha. ah qiu so funny, looks like she got 2 numbers. anyway i will nv forget the phrase that she said "every bit of my body is aching except my hair" haha!!! oh faints..

the run is fun. 8km. will i ever do more?

come back..

Friends so dear to me, I don’t know how to comfort you. Within a week, everyone of u are down. Girls are so fragile.


Friend #1.
How do I even begin. I feel so far away from you, when u need a hug, when u need someone to cry with u, or to say Happy Sunny Day in a silly voice to. Do not feel alone. When I called and you cried, saying u miss us, I felt so far away. I imagine you listless, a solitary figure, with a broken heart. 6-foot deep is the incision, all u hv is tunnel vision. You will find HIM one day, forget the wrong him. He’s hurt u too much. How can u say u’ll never find HIM, when he’s out there somewhere waiting for u? You need to heal now. You who is so strong, bubbly, cute, is now downcast under a load of heartache. I love you the most, but. How do I fix you?


Friend #2.
The past week - your swollen eyes, the distant look on your face. Pains me, that I cannot help you. For it is your own struggle, your own search. Timelines are man-made, they should not be a determinant. Do not give up as yet, I feel, look to the future. Isn’t it happy; haven’t you been so happy? He can bring you happiness, I’ve seen the joy on your face. My 2 dearest friends. Don’t cling on cos u cherish the past, but hold on, cos u know there is a future ahead. Hope is not lost. Yet.


Friend #3.
I am afraid of your bitterness, and I know it stems from your hurt. The wound is still fresh, and u seem to have deflated, to want to hide in your own corner away from the world. I’m waiting for u to turn to me, your sis-in-Christ, may we uphold and exhort each other. You were my strength, can I be yours too?

We meet new people along life’s way. Some step into our lives, some step out of it. Some are here to stay, some are here to leave. Some bring you such joy, some bring you such pain. Some stay with you, throughout life, some fall along the way. Is not that what life is all about?

Do u remember that day when u first met him?

How u didn’t think much of it? How the very first impression was formed? How that first meeting made u remember him the next time u saw him?

Exactly 2 years, St Patricks day.

Yeeng and I went to Munchie to hear Reverie. I think I will be a Reverie fan forever and ever. We were just drowning in the lead’s voice; him buble-ing, him bonjovi-ing. Yeeng and I being silly giggly girls. And then the band dedicated a song to ‘the two girls in black at the back’. (I think cos we were the only ones appreciating the band cos others found their food more interesting.) Then this yeeng, blushed pink! Haha! So funny. Giggly girls. Just the two of us.

I met u then. Yeeng saw u, u came over. Cant rem the conversation, but I know u had a black shirt with this cute 4-leaved clover pin on it. Yeeng and I whined for one too. (but u later admitted u couldn’t find any so u didn’t come back. Tsk tsk.) Munchie was crazy, beers, big tall hats, clovers hanging from the ceiling. Dizzy with music in the air. That was the atmosphere. This guy standing by my table, coming around now and then. And I found u cute.

U tried to drag us to the stage to play a game, some St Pats game. U had small eyes and a big nose. (u still have them) And they twinkled with fun. This I remember. I think we just whined back at u. 2 lesbian girls on a fun night out. We asked for a discount, and u settled that for us. Then most probably we whined our thankyous and called u a walking discount. And u flirted back, u big flirt.

I didn’t remember your name, even till a month later when csc was soliciting for guys at medical chkup for ethelonter camp. I just called u ‘discount card’. U tell me tt I was on top of the staircase & I screamed discount card. And a discount card u were, throughout the camp, our early days. Until when lijie made ur identifier, and ur name got shortened to jooch cos there was no space for –uan. And I bet u sulked. Haha.

This I remember, how I first met you.

when your night becomes my day

and my day becomes your night

it sinks in you are away,

and you are out of sight.

what to do when jooch is not around? find things to eat.. (he must b screaming now). he always like to control my chocolate intake. but now u cant. neah neah neah... haha.

ahhhhhh... this is from yeeng. or u may say, was from yeeng. for Christmas 2006. thank you yeeng!!! i love u!!! such a wonderful gift. =)
so cute right! the actual size is as big as a picture frame!!!


so this is what it looks like from the inside.

jooch. are u scared tt i am gg to eat it all at one shot? haha. if so, come back now.

anyway, its an advent calendar, so supposed to open one window to countdown to Christmas. so sweet. but i open all at one shot.


the chocs are really cute, all very beautifully shaped. they sure know how to do things in germany.

such a pity to eat them. well. eating chocs are fun, yum yum yum.

ok la jooch stop sulking. i promise not to eat all at one go. (sigh)

jooch gave me this before he left. yes. read the cover. haha! so funny right! haha. faints. just taking out the book and looking at the cover makes me smile. and i rem he said "this is not your book" (i thought he was going to say it is yuncai's book). then he said "its our book". sounds like a bad script. haha.. oh faints..

i'm so pampered by jooch. he is such a sweet bear. haha.

it even comes with an instruction manual - that i can only read one page a day. (he set the rules)so that it will last. haha. ration. but he took 2 months to make this, so i must quench my curiosity and really savour each page. aww.. feel so pampered.

this is jooch's vday gift for me - his scent. very special, cos its his smell. so much comfort. haha. tho its an half empty bottle, it really is a very precious gift! i can just remember. =)

last yr he gave me a bottle of potpourri with notes that i had to dig out. (messy). i emptied potpourri all over the place. this time once again its a treat for the olfactory senses!

shall i tell of how scent travels from the olfactory tract to the limbic system to trigger memory and expression of emotional - euphoria, relaxing, sedative and stimulating. AHH.

this koala bear. when jooch went aussie he got it for me. its very small and cute. reminds me of him. he also has big ears and a big nose. just that jooch doesnt carry boomerangs.

jooch also gave me his old thumbdrive. i think he scared my thumbdrive spoil. haha. anyway, i am only going to open it when i start missing him badly. (as in, even more badly than now). he said there's a surpwise inside. its like emergency kit. haha.

thankyou jooch, you are so thoughtful!

(cue for all girlfriends to pinch their boyfriends now for not being as sweet.)

my pharm sis xq just smsed me regarding a reminder for a test, and ended off with "a few more weeks and then we are gg to be separated =(" wheahhhhhhhhh....

today me and my pharm sisters xq and huiWei went for this paid experiment. huirei got $20+ so she treated xq and me (who got measly $6.60) to lunch. it was 2 sausages from the arts bazaar. (cos the experiment ended late so we had to rush to lesson. shit. if not i will ask her to treat us to munchies). anyway. xq gave me a sushi. and it rained and rained as we rushed back to sci. running tog. wet and cold. my pharm sisters are so nice to me! i will miss them very much. aww... really. i cannot imagine life without them. no one to be my calendar (xq). no one to nag some theory with (hr). no one to laugh at (hr). no one to laugh at hr with (xq). wheahhhhhh.... i will miss my pharm sisters.

hope that we will still keep contact during pre-reg. i think we'll be so swamped w presentations, projects and assignments. hv a funny feeling we'll b piahing in medical lib on the weekends tog. haha. faints. ok. we must go shopping tog. at bugis. and we must perm our hair tog. and also use our $ earned during pre-reg to go for grad trip tog after pre-reg!

fwens are precious. pharm sisters are indispensible (sorry for the pun). i love my pharm sisters! wheahhhhh.....