my love
my cheese

for without u;
i am cheese-less.

(did i just spoil a romatic line)
supposed to b 'for without u; i am nothing'

ah yes. my cream cheese with salmon & my aged gouda. been waiting so long but didnt wanna open my aged gouda. for it will b gone soon. sob. as i write. it is gonning. anyway. its the last of my nz cheeses.. only left 2 more i think.. sighs.

possibly u cant understand why i rant and rave over my cheeses. hey its fine-tasting here ok. the flavour. the way it explodes w richness in ur mouth. the lingering sensation. the after-taste. the tingle.

tingle tingle little lip; how i wonder what u sip

up above the world so high, u bring me right up to the sky

(threos of estacy)

tingle tingle little lip; add some salicylate for a dip.

one smell & drain are soooo funny. smell is having this fit of best-fwen-jealousy just cos i bao-ed drain dinner on monday and didnt bao for smell. in fact, didnt even ask smell. basically, dun care about him, forgot about him, wont mourn for him even if he starves. so smell is gonna set up a blog called chloeisbad@blogspot.com or mayb chloedidntbuymefood@blogspot.com. i am waiting, smell.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO TAN PAPA.

haha. papa was so happy. he was very excited. even tho he says 'everyday is my ber-day', he was counting down to his actual bday since jan. yes. he says 'my ber-day is coming, yay!!!!' then gives that GRIN. (refer to diagram 2. i mean, photo 2). now he says its his bday-minus-3. tt's why they say as ppl grow older, they actually grow younger. anyway. didnt get smth for papa yet. did a picture mosiac of the many funny poses - drinking from a birdbath, many many of him smelling flowers, many of him pointing at things. haha. papa bought himself a very new hp. its very new. twist it, its an mp3 player. twist again its a camera. ha, dunno how to use. anyway. happy bday papa. =)

ok shld post a happier post to offset the last negativity. actually v happy la, besides the cognitive overload & clutter (borrowed phrase from meitoon).

last fri i went to the esplanade for the EIC gig. jack & rai do have that magic, and tt sei-ness of being able to sing and play guitar, to engage the crowd, to connect, to tug at ur heartstrings. with the river lapping in the backgrd. the merlion puking away. the grand old fullerton where yeeng & i used to hang out ard. lights of the cbd eclipsing the gentle stars. occasional breeze. 2 guys singing their hearts out (for u). faints. safe & secure.

then i saw the poster about Rivermaya, & was thinking mayb i'll come back another day for them.. and who knows after eic ended their last note, there was this HUGE CHEER & Rivermaya was 'gigging' away down at the pavilion.. faints.. a full blown rock concert, they are quite sei (esp the lead) & got the attitude, showmanship, lights, awesome sound, the screaming crowd albeit philipina. he sang this song in tagalog, & it sounds so greenday!!! faints... who says asians cant do it?! i like the ringring in ur ears when u walk away. the post-jamX feeling. the numbness tt loud music brings with it, the high high high. however, the eic feeling lingers better.

5 tests & pk8 presentation coming up... this fri 2 submissions.. woes of a student life man.. been so bloody emotionally unstable, met yeeng online msn yest for the first time, made me teary again. i suck. what has happened to me the independent rock queen strong fierce confident cool steady. *groans*

found a new biscuit tt is very nice to eat. heehee.

pk practical woes

can u feel our love for pk pract? i scared alot of ppl when my msn nick read 'dun provoke me, pk sucks big time'... . i am so sick of pk i dun even feel like blogging abt it. this week so many reports are due.. analysis is another headache.. oh i wish to bury myself in a corner and die. pharm sisters.. help...xQ u were so sweet to me when u dug out a sweet after i got the pk8 urine pract bombshell. BOMBSHELL. actually u know wt gals.. i think i will just lie down & die without my pharm sisters...thx my fav pharm sisters.

xq is v cute recently, we were in the toilet & she HOPPED towards huirei. huirei had a traumatized face. of course i did it too. (now must praise huirei if not she upset). err... huirei also v cute. cos xq was sitting on her left, but tapped her right shoulder. no prizes for guessing which way huirei turned. oh huirei got sei-attitude recently. yest she closed her biotech notes during lect & refused to write/listen. & yest also she asked xQ if got pharmacotherapy lecture; i think she wanted xq to tell her no. haha. faints... haiya gals, cheer up together ok!!! sweesung was also v sweet to me (post-pk8) she wrote me loveletter abt me passing her food to smell. haha.

an exerpt from huirei....huirei & i got the EXACT SAME SENTIMENTS man. ah this is so b.i.t.c.h.a.b.l.e. huirei, copyright ok, got acknowledge u hor.. (nb: the chinese word is i type one. really.)

Thirdly, this is not a easy prac to do for non excel guru like me. Cos bascially a set of calculations lead to another set values, which is needed to generate another set of values etc. At 12.10 am, I was very dismayed n upset when my final set of values were wrong (should not get negative values). I was at my wits end already. Want to doctor results also cannot, cos doctoring is going to affect all the previous calculations n graphs. I already doctored so many times b4 tat i am very sick of the tedious process.It all boiled down to me being terrible at excel. I have difficulty setting the formulas properly such tat i just have to key in the values n all the subsequent calculations r done accordingly, n all the graphs nicely plotted. I had to copy the values here n there, n when changes r made, recopying here n there again. There is always the perpetual fear of pasting something wrongly, or forgetting to edit a formula. Errors pop up occasionally, n sometimes i cannot key in the equations i wanted n had to calculate a set of data manually. I really done until i 欲哭无泪。

There’s this new trend emerging in pharm.. white pointy shoes.. haha. I’ve caught the fever.. and now its like the white-shoe-gang consists of tingting huiyu jielin michelle Yvonne linliang huirei and me (note, no xQ). Hey come on, its like 9.6% of our cohort.. isn’t that high.. come on xQ. Get ur white shoes too. It matches our lab coat. Do I sound like an advertisement?

Today was the long-awaited urine pk practical.. david’s urine and david’s birthday. I think the best present that he got was us 2 girls playing with his urine man. anyway his urine is quite obedient, it gave a very nice pk elimination profile. Haha. Pk practs are a nightmare, with super-hypnotizing drip drip drip of the burette to simulate our elimination rate. Ha. Faints. Thx tessa and david. Its been fun. David u’re finally useful just filling up the burette. Oh, pls ignore the ‘just’ in the previous sentence. Dun underestimate the importance of filling the burette. Only one man can do it sitting down. Wonderful. And when he went toilet to shit, tessa and I forgot all abt this impt aspect. Whoo hoo. Me luv grp22. haha! =)

Finally this wk is the last week of practicals.. we haven’t had 3 practs a week before, and it had (has) its toll on us.. finally! Argh. Pls kill me if I ever work in a lab.

yeeng's been gone a week. but it hasnt been so bad. i think the pre-departure part is really bad, but then when the real departure comes, the clock chimes the time, the time is hence passed, then u breathe again, and its not so bad. i do miss her. she's my playmate. now no one to gross mervyn out zusammen.

silly me. i've been sillying too. cried so much the past weeks that my tear ducts got infected. my eye swelled.
I was soooo upset. My eyes are my only asset. (xq said tt b4. hahhaha! Thx ah, xq.) but thank goodness its better now. Early treatment with expensive fusidic antibiotic cures in 3 days. The tube is smaller than my thumb drive lor. Faints. Thx drain for the garlic too. It also helped shoo off the vampires. Now what am I gg to do with 2 bunches of garlic I dunno. Mayb make some garlic-dessert or smth.

To tease. Pronunciation: 'tEz
1 a : to disentangle and lay parallel by combing or carding b : teasel
2 : to tear in pieces; especially : to shred (a tissue or specimen) for microscopic examination
3 a : to disturb or annoy by persistent irritating or provoking especially in a petty or mischievous way b : to annoy with petty persistent requests : pester; also : to obtain by repeated coaxing
c : to persuade to acquiesce especially by persistent small efforts : coax
d : to manipulate or influence as if by teasing
4 : to comb (hair) by taking hold of a strand and pushing the short hairs toward the scalp with the comb
5 : to tantalize especially by arousing desire or curiosity without intending to satisfy it


To tempt. Pronunciation: 'tem(p)t
1 : to entice to do wrong by promise of pleasure or gain
2 a obsolete : to make trial of : test
b : to try presumptuously : provoke
c : to risk the dangers of
3 a : to induce to do something
b : to cause to be strongly inclined

1 2 3 4. that is mid sem break.

Mid-sem break, goodness gracious. I don’t even have the chance to faint, for I am caught. Secure yet vulnerable. Indecisive yet decisive. Comfortable yet edgy. Sinking yet floating. Starry.

2 of my fwens are holding knives.

A knife. With which he took and stabbed it into his chest. 6 foot deep was the incision. Then he took out his heart, still pulsing, red and warm, and gave it back. A knife. With which she slit her slender wrists. Immersing them into a sink of warm water, it slowly turned red. 6 foot deep was the incision.

Aches.

Yeeng is leaving tonight.