this lil sheeplet is from lijie... its all the way from europe, and i'm gg to put it on my bag as a first-day-at-work gift!!! thank you lijie, u are so sweet! its an angel-sheeplet!!! =)



lijie. i really owe u a big one. that girl, she came all the way from khatib to tampines to meet me for 10mins then go home again..just to pass me this:
really very touched. it means alot to me..

(my "rations" till august)

this is my chosen ration for this week. hee. sheeplet is pointing all around.. really like me, i also like to point at jooch, then laugh.. =)

angry at myself for being a complete wreck without him

when no one understands i'm only half living

there is a dense fog in the world i live in

i want to sleep and wake up in august

when no one sees how for a pathetic 12 weeks

all i have of him is this; pictures & allegories

which i post here, and u think it diabetic

all i have of him is webcam remnants

when i touch his face

only to feel a cold hard screen

you will never understand.

i silently count down to his birthday.

friends.

no one can do without them.

2 weeks of my holidays have passed, and i think i have been staying at home alot... trying to clear my 4 years of crap... helping my mum with the groceries and learning to cook a little. also been gg to church alot to help with the upcoming World Bookfair at Suntec.. price tagging, stocktake.. tiring but rewarding work... its like on the edge of smth new - the graduated-with-nothing-to-do-just-waiting-for-work-to-start feeling.. a lil aimless, a lil scared.. having some reflections on my past 4 yrs in NUS, and when i reflect, i think the best thing tt NUS gave me was friends =)

friends. i love all of them!

there is my pharm sisters, of first and foremost importance.. helping me to SURVIVE in pharmacy.. yes. so very important. and xq and huirei are so very special ppl. =) love them very much.. after our last paper, we went to settlers with 7 other ppl, including our chemistry cousin Lijie. also a very special and very loved friend. hee. missing yeeng. no yeeng. WHEAH... settlers was great fun cos we played this very cute doggy game.. then xq and huirei and i FINALLY went MOS. hee.. and we went exploring in all the rooms.. the whole night. haah.. but we all agreed that zouk has a better atmosphere.. MOS just somehow seems more sleazy, esp the moshpit in the hiphop room.. but the furnishings are nice; with the chanderliers etc.. that night, we all slept in xq's room at about 4am.. spelling the end of schooldays.. thank you pharm sisters! tho we are gg to be separated WHEAHHHHHH.. we'll still b in touch & whining tog in high pitch voices!


last wk i went to settlers (again, haha) for a mini 4th MC outing.. but so many ppl overseas + sick + working / intern.. so in the end got ek zQ crystal me + calvin.. small grp, which makes playing easier.. which was fun! we played this VERY NICE penguin game & also Knights of the Round Table - a very nice game intro by zQ. that zQ. he really has a knack for these things. we played for 4 hrs until really seh... such tt we gotta cancel meetup with kkl and km.. nvm, there is definitely more MC outings to come. esp as we bid farewell to our dearest km..

really love this penguin game.. so did everyone. i think its the SLP influence. HAHAHA... i am a green penguin. ek called me sick. i said ek is schmelly. hahaha. quarrelling with him makes me happy (an ironical statement). anyway. look at poor green penguin. he is sadly stranded by himself on an island. wheah.... the yellow penguin is the cause of it all. it is evil calvin *play evil music*

but the next round i played smarter. revenge of the green penguin. *insert triumphant music here*. green overpowers the evil & trapped calvin and ek on the little island by themselves! hahaaha... ek very upset, cos calvin a bit gay. hhahhaa.


calvin trying to rape ek. i mean, calvin's penguin trying to rape ek's penguin. haha. but censored la. wt if 12 year old children read my blog?

after tt, went shopping at the new mall above clarke quay mrt... and i bought a blouse. heehee. and fav crystal really quite fun to shop with, cos she also like to try out clothes. but i think calvin ek and zQ very poor thing. and i discovered smth - zQ also likes black leather boots!!!!!!!! too bad he cant wear. or maybe.... uh oh..


last wk also went shopping at bugis with huiwei..after lunch with xq. who looks like a modern chick with her new haircut! shopping was fun, cos got SALES! but v v v v tiring. we hv no stamina. hahaha. but we tried on dresses and more clothes. the kind with japanese sleeves. but i look like i am wearing pajamas. haha. huiwei said tt i hv a country-girl taste. funny how life is, isnt it?


on thu i went out with my mum & 3 aunties to plaza sing buy scrap book stuff. really very aunty. hahaha. faintssssss.. but really v funny la. alot of playful bickering.. the way they talk and interact, i really envy, and i really hope to keep all my friends like this in future. last night best fwen one smell said suddenly that i am "a good fren to keep". felt so touched. firstly cos he nv says nice things about me (hahha) and secondly cos it made me think.. and hope that i can and will live up to this statement..


tho my world seems to revolve ard jooch, and yeeng.. it also orbits to my dearest fwens too.. so help me be a good fren to keep for all of u okay?

this is my neopet.

he is sleeping. haha. he would wake up, say hallo, then go back and snooze. and 20mins later, he hardly moves.. until u say hallo hallo hallo and he finally wakes up.. and walks around with his toothbrush. he also peeps at me with his toothbrush from behind a wall. he really can multitask with a toothbrush in his mouth. hee.

then he would start getting his breakfast ready. quite fun to watch. cos he will open the cupboards in the kitchen. ALL of them. haha. he tells me if his cereals are "nice". and also, his daily coffee - which he certainly knows how to make very well =)

this is neopet finally fully woken up and changed for sch. sometimes u can choose what he wears. & u hv to help him find his sweater. hee. i think he is perpectually rushing to sch every morn. cos it takes so long to say goodbye..

sometimes in the afternoon he will end lesson early and come back to take a nap. but he will play for a while to amuse me.. overindulgence.. peekaboo!

after his lil nap, he will be in a rush to go to school. quite funny to see the neopet running from the right to the left and from left to right again. then finally, he will wear his socks (which takes him quite long) and he will make a final face at me.

night night joochbear. tho ur night is my day, and my night is your day. we've managed. for 11 weeks. happy. =)

i'm not a very animal person, but i simply adore sheep. and more recently, bears. jooch's recent trip to switz, he went trigger happy on sheep and bears. hee. thank you jooch for the pix.. no i do not like soft toys at all; they are so fake. but look at this lil sheep. its soooooooo cute. i want to keep a sheep in my house next time. and u can ask yeeng/jooch to demo how a sheep sounds like. they sound like sheep. meeeeeehhh.

this was taken in bear-town in switzerland.. poor brown bear is very bored. u see him up to all antics; playing with a log, climbing up and sniffing grass and just walking about. bears. raaaa. so cute. raaaaaaa.

i still remember when me & carine went crazy at the csc chalet, and was gg ard waking ppl up.. she was saying jooch loooks like a bear. i think its the small eyes and sticking-out ears and the sulky look. now jooch has short hair, looks like a fuzzy wuzzy bear even more. uh oh. (who ask him to blog about german girls.) POOpooPOOpoo.

"a place is only a place, when people ascribe meaning to it". i rem this from that module changing landscapes of singapore.. and it stuck in my mind, cos its true, and its meaningful..


last friday, i was taking a lil walk from raffles to marina area.. my favourite place in singapore is this area, near the singapore river. ya the belly-of-the-carp and what have you. its such a unusual place, on one side of the river u see the CBD, and the row of quaint shophouses.. on the other, is the stately colonial buildings.. love to just stroll here. and think of all the times with you.. (referring to yeeng). yeeng do u rem the day we came here to sing? we just sat at the steps of the river and sang for one hour. like drunkards. haha. i dunno why we did that.. but i rem it was a nice evening, and we felt so serene, and peaceful.. and care-less.. i miss u yeeng.


and there's another - this place also reminds me of the times with You...




singapore is really a neat and tidy place. even leaves are not allowed to drop on the ground. but hastily swept away. sometimes this makes it too artificial. grass is trimmed and kept to perfection. makes me long for the wild fields that i used to play in when i was young. nothing too fancy, nothing too tip top. just me making my own daisy chains and blowing dandelions. childhood is so free and easy. now i embark as a graduate. the word itself carries weight.



two trees frame the picture. singapore is very lush, green all year round. even the trunks are green with climbers and parasitic plants. makes the picture frame very interesting indeed.
jooch rem the fullerton. we were running on the road to watch fireworks that night. and in the end we stood at the road divider to watch it. it was so magical wasnt it. the sparkling water with myriad of reflections, the promenade, the spouting merlion, the lights in the sky like stars falling out of the sky, you.


people rave about the avon river.. the river here is not too bad either. just wish we could go punting here. would be really something. wish to go to venice, during their masquerade festival. ahhhh.. anyway what u see there is not a romantic punter. its them cleaning up the river. and no, no weeping willows. but got bent-raintree overlooking the waters instead. not too bad la, ya..

cant see the little fall of yellow flowers on the ground from here. but they were falling like confetti out of the tree, as it shook in the gentle breeze. very pretty indeed. had to sweep my hair too. if not will look quite bimbotic with a yelllow flower perched on my head.

this one. supposed to take the bridge. but ended up taking more of the pavement instead. i wonder how many ppl have sat on this stone bench. did they feel its coldness? what were they thinking of - were they sad, happy, sharing a romantic moment, or contemplating a watery grave?

the esplanade. iconic??? there are one million shots about it. but this angle is special. for its the place that we sit to eat our o-luats. to hear the lapping waves, the low drone of motor boats passing us by, and us, oblivious. how the merlion, seems to eternally gush its neverending stream. and how after that in great excitement we would go to the rooftop to listen to EIC playing outdoors. this place is a place, cos it has meaning to it. to sit and watch the world go by...

"Our visions, our dreams, our aspirations, our inspirations, our hopes, our wishes should never be extinguished, for as long as we are together, as long as our love is, we will have our chance to fulfil our dreams."

this is a lil graduation song by pharm fwen Grace Chang.. really funny, this girl. love my class. after the last exam, we did the kallang wave in the exam hall. hahhha. so funny.

(Sing to the tune of the NDP song)

There was a time when the department said Your C.A.P. can't make it
But you did
There was time when studies seemed Too much for us to take
But we did

We came for lessons Though a little late
Although we are right here Our minds are still in bed

This is our LT Where we take naps
We love to chill out In the dispensing lab
I did my FYP Till I went mad
We are soon gonna be Out of pharmacy

Pharmacy, our destiny It's here that we belong
Kidding us forever That no answers are wrong
We've come so far together To get a good degree
Pharmacy school is over
But why I am still not free?

(C) GC 2007

graduated. last exam of my life. but just feeling empty. no cause for celebration, no overwhelming feeling of euphoria. just like that. like that.

missing jooch.

First of May

When I was small and Christmas trees were tall
we used to love while others used to play
don't ask me why but time has passed us by
some one else moved in from far away

now we are tall and Christmas trees are small
and you don't ask the time of day
but you and I our love will never die
but guess we'll cry come first of May

the apple tree that grew for you and me
I watched the apples falling one by one
and I recall the moment of them all
the day I kissed your cheek and you were mine

now we are tall and Christmas trees are small
and you don't ask the time of day
but you and I our love will never die
but guess we'll cry come first of May

when I was small and Christmas trees were tall