tired of comforting myself.


anaemia

When it rains
The soft grey sky
Drifts to the ground
Brown rivulets
Trickle away Trickle away
Washing sadness down

Weather vanes
Weep and turn Weep and turn
Forgetting in the damp and grey
That by and by
The sun will shine

Sun will shine
By and by
The sun will shine.

jooch on webcam...

(his eyes still very small)

and i think he is like a neopet. cos he wakes up at 2pm singapore time, sometimes u can see him eat, sometimes u can see him sleep, and he will sulk if u make fun of his small eyes (like how kingkiao did.) he can make faces also if u ask him nicely. heehee.

certainly a neopet!!!

just tt this neopet drinks beer. POO.

more knut pictures.. yay!!!

knut bathing!

knut running...
knut running sideview...
knut on grass...
knut drinking water with a mini-waterfall hanging out..
knut clapping hands...
knut with black face... haha...

knut looking proud of himself...

knut looking confused... knut smelling theengs on the floor...


knut with small eyes and big nose...

knut biting something and being clumsy with his paws...
knut lying on a trunk (no he is not smelling the tree)...

i feel dizzy.

• my laptop died. its in hospital.
• i have to pay extra $40 to decrypt my info from the harddrive.
  
• my best fwen is gg thru a heartache & smsed me 9 smses in the morn, yet i didnt see it till i was in sch. cannot go online to find her. upset.
  
• cos by the time i go online, she's probably schweeping. freaking time zone.
• my best fwen sms me again in the evening. but i was playing tennis. missed it again.
• she was upset, and i wasnt there.
• i dont understand natural products despite studying it the whole day. & reading the freaking notes that so-cannot-make-it.
  
• jooch sms me at night. but i was eating/bathing/watching tv. and i also missed 2 calls. and by the time i saw it, he had to go off.
• and he sms me to say "wheah". i really know he is wheah-ing.
  
• jooch is having german problems, analogous to my cannot-make-it-chinese. he cant understand his first lessons in german, and he's upset/stressed/worried/vexed.
• he was upset, and i wasnt there.
  
• they are both upset, and i cant be there.
• jooch changed his blogskin. quite some time alr. still getting used to it.
  
• yeeng change blog. the blogskin is jooch's old blog.
• so when i see yeeng's blog, i keep thinking its jooch blog. and it doesnt help tt yeeng sounds like me and jooch sounds like me so yeeng sounds like jooch and jooch sounds like yeeng.
• my pharm sister has a very sad blog post, which i saw only 4 days later. feel like a bad fwen.
  
• i got a heartbreaking email from my friend.
  
• only difference is, there is no heart left to break.

today i'm very happy... in fact i've been very happy since friday, with the providential arrival of my parcel to jooch. i posted it on tues, and it arrived on friday, very amazing timing.. that was certainly a very very timely arrival, up to the immediate second, for that time probably was one of the lowest points for jooch in the past 6 weeks and 2 days... he was smsing me, at first dull and wilted and sombre, then the next thing he was screaming in the sms & ph, to say a postman came to visit him. (i suspected the postman was cute or smth). anyway, echoing your sentiments exactly, we really ought to thank God for His timeliness to lift us out of despair in times of need!



I am very priviledged to have Pastor Stuart Olyott to be our church camp speaker. he is such a wonderful man of God, into his 60s.. a frail-looking man who has an amazing sense of British dry wit. like he tells u he's from Wales. and his next statement is "and its not a fish".



his sermons on fri & today were simply so wonderful; so evangelistic.. fri was on the gospel - Christ died for my sins + buried + rose again + was seen - an age-old truth that i have known, but was reminded of, and it had such an impact. a wonderful wakeup call. Today was of conversions; of great encouragement. The camp was on the 4 great blessings of the Christian life - Justification, Adoption, Sanctification and Assurance. I asked, with trembling, why must we be sanctified; how can it be considered a blessing when we are chastened. But God puts us thru this, so that our gold will shine all the more brighter, He puts us thru pain maybe so that we would learn to pray. to drive us back to Him. of which i am guilty not of. dear fwen mich, remember this ok?




see this picture, when jooch showed me, i felt very happy and smiled sweetly at him (i tot he was gg to ask if i wanted it). then he said that it reminded him of me. (starting to frown). he said that i have a skirt like this. MAJOR SULK. then he tried to shift the blame on yinggai saying yinggai also said it reminded him of me. STILL major sulk. i never had a skirt like this!!! wheah... this jooch.. easily distracted. i think he got me confused with Mary / Suzie / Jane... faints..

anyway we were recalling the times when he would say dumb things like that (like forgetting my name & staring at me in blankness. or purposely calling me Mary / Suzie instead) and make me sulky & act like a brat, but how we would end up laughing away in the end..

my pharmacy class of 2007 today's my last day of school... ever. later on at 4pm will be my last lecture of all. ever. i think later surely got ppl cry... heh.. faints.. we've been 4 yrs tog, a class of 07.

i'm gg to miss sch, u know, tho its mostly dreadful, but there's lunch, and after-sch-stuff-to-do to look forward to.. imagine working/pre-reg.. just endless endless endless. in lectures u can eat/sleep/draw pictures/disturb ur pharm sisters... but when u work, u'll hv to be on ur toes all the time.. must be professional, no more talk cock sing song.. sigh..

this is a group of us after counselling session.. see everyone dress so nice.. we just sat and talk cock.., and also made fun of DR. CHAN... hahhah.. not make fun of him la, but he has quite a fan club, and rachel was saying how he was a patient who pretended to have stomach pain, so she wanted to say "oh so can u take off ur shirt and i take a look?" oh faints, all of us were screaming away in high pitch laughter at CIL...

its ironic that when we are leaving sch, then our class starts to get tog to play.. like i went out with a bunch of pharm ppl to vivocity last last week to nuah the whole afternoon away, and doing girly things like trying on clothes.. i think we cannot mass-shop or mass-eat or mass-act silly like this anymore.

and also after lessons, go and play badminton... play tennis. here is our famous coach, david tan. haha. and guess who he is teaching? all of us. ahha. tennis = pick balls only..kingkiao (xinqiao) play very cute. and huirei act professional... haha.. here are a few tennis shots..

sweesung says when we graduate, she'll set up badminton club and all of us will come back during pre-reg and play tog. i think tt is something i'm gg to look forward to.

class of 2007, i am gg to miss u all! esp my pharm sisters.. xq.. huirei.. wheahhhhhhhhh....

jooch says, today is the last lesson of my life. thx for ur well wishes. i miss u terribly too. anyway the pictures below is for jooch, since he says he misses food MORE than he misses me. go salivate away. poo. SULK.

yes yeeng. i feel like doing that! (now no one will control & sulk at me)

haahaa.