exactly a yr ago, bro underwent brain op. to date, recovery pending. i won't forget that you, and my friends sustained me. cliche, but true. gratitude is sometimes inexpressible, indefinable.

for you. my heartfelt appreciation.

"walketh not behind me, for i may leadeth not. walketh not in front of me, for i may followeth not. graciously walketh beside myself, and my friend thou shalt be."
Albert Camus (1913 - 1960)

vincent ng seems to be talking better in today's episode. for e benefit of my adorable keith fren who hasnt a clue, vincent ng is really very woo-worthy. he jus happens to n acting in a bad drama-but-not-very-drama-mamma series with an equally cannot-make-it title, & e only reason y they r not getting sued yet is cos my vincent ng is in it & he goes topless / singlet parade / tight tank top most of e time. however there was NOT a SINGLE scene today in which he was shirtless / singlet-ess / save even for him showing his forearms. yes. NOT a SINGLE scene. left me hopping mad. ratings sure drop. i gg sue them. wads e pt of watching then, u tell me. anticipation of e past wk, & today, yes, blessed tuesday, not a single glimpse of his arm? (or abs for tt matter) sue them. sue them. sue them. better off watching 'universal soldiers'. 5 big men.

must bang that steph-song-aka-rachel-aka-poser-with-fake-accent-faker-than-false-teeth. pls let me bitch a while. an extract fm IS mag : ...PCK had to clean up his lang & eradicate singlish after PM commented on it unfavourably...(and to wack e other end of e spectrum) what's WORSE, some char sound like americans, britons, or australians, or all 3 at various times. e role played by steph song (erm, who?? hello.) in heartlanders (chose a better title next time. PLS.) come to mind; when she speaks,(e toad croaks. or tries to sing) e realism is shattered, (ping piang) esp cos vincent ng & aaron aziz's lead char speak in a more downhome manner. & it all makes for cringeworthy tv. (applause! bravo!). cringeworthy? pukeworthy rather. end of bitching. :P

lunchtime makes e storeroom's lights shine brighter. yest had a nice lunch wif von & reg. its like them in office attire. me in just-woke-up clothes. haha, no need wear courtshoes liao. anyway, reg took a very nice pix with her digicam & pasted it on her webby. talking abt digicam, i can't even switch mine on. anyway, so if u missed us (or think we had unrecognizably deformed / transformed) go check. anyway von got new ph. again, yes, again. e lady's ph; white with diamond thingy. i like. i like. would've bought red tho. its like screaming 4 attention. haha. wif a ph liddat, wouldn't u. anyway, it was good to feel old & bored & miserable with 2 of them. enjoyed it thoroughly.

today mountain, char & i walked ard our area & discovered china town square. very new-ish, cleanish, un-chinese-ish, & petite-ish. also went to mph, mountain found a bk titled 'disturbed children' or smth, with big illustrations. cute (or i thot). one full story : Emily Amputee. One day, Emily went to the doctors for a checkup. Well, her papers got mixed up so her leg got amputated. The End. (e illustrations compressed still would b more than the no. of wrds) another story was abt how some child cooked his parents. sounds gross here but e pix were so funny. ok ok i'm morbid. will not cook my papa tho. if not, who'll drive me to work? hahaha...

i am officially broke.
best frens having bdays ard now.
-29 May: char my collegue.
-30 May: wendy ah-mah fm dunman.
-31 May: jacqui allis, new zealand fren. plus postage.
-02 June: best fren reg fm vjc (who recently denounced pink so i've to re-shop, yay! can keep e stuff i bought, din wan to give it away anyway. i confessed)
-02 June again : cara van weerden, new zealand fren. plus postage.

one would think they purposely were born then to gimme a headache (and heartache. haha).
i am officially broke. plus terranova got sales. terranova. te-rra-no-vaaaaaaaa.

i am confident singapore's economy will recover fm its slump. i helped. (i'm so proud of me).

terranova got sales. terranova got sales. terranova got sales.
used to be damn expensive. damn expensive. now... glory glory hallelujah,
terranova got sales. terranova got sales. terranova got sales.

think i do not like vincent ng anymore. can't stand tt rachel with a faker-than-false-teeth-ang-moh-accent. piss me off completely. she goes "reee-key (vincent's stupid name in show is some ricky crap. oh my. shld b tom / dick / harry. anything but reeee-key) ahh'll allll-way-z be he-ear for you-oo-uu." translate. oh shutup shutup shutup. puke puke. and vincent ng cannot speak english to save his life. cannot make it. cannot make it. cannot make it. now even his bod can't even help him over e edge. maybe he shld hv posed shirtless more in tt episode. vincent is unforgiven.

terranova. I LIKE. char & i were in mrt & some hongkong ppl came on board. talked v loudly in some language; sounded like char-kway-teow-ching-chang, maybe its some chinese dialect. (adapted fm glenn ong & rod). they were eating some dried plums or smth, e kind u take when u constipated. anyway char & me started covering our nose. for e whole journey. must prevent sars ma. hey at least we din walk over & stuff e whole bag down their throats. go back hong-keeee-s.

feeling mean. so would u if u 'condemned' to 4th floor. help. damn pathetic here, stuck in 4th floor e whole afternoon. ok let me divulge tt it is a storeroom 4processed forms. (yes me, an admin asst my foot-no more wearing my pointed tips shoes... waa). a storeroom like no other. beyond imagination. like another world. lifeless. seen only ONE ant in my brief 3 day imprisonment there. and many more to come. perfect i-am-very-miserable atmosphere. oh fie. oh fie. oh fie. haha, mountain mountain is funny. she wrote : "lalalalah. yet another wonderful day at the 4th floor store room. absolutely smashing. had a lovely time folding boxes & carrying them. can't wait to do it again tomorrow & everyday until i leave cpf. no words to describe my elation i tell you." wad optimism. seems like i'm writing abt mountain mountain every time in blog. no, not homo. really. so every day is e same u know, sama sama. fold box. pack box. carry box. label box. record box. feel like boxing. botox. clorox. detox. (& shitting is a gd way of detoxing). in a nicer way, u can call it 'archiving'. ahhhhhhhhh. so exciting.

today i died. my killer shoes fm charles & keith. pointed tips. i like. i like it very much. class. (like me. fine i admit, sometimes only) thot can kill ppl like kicking them somewhere. in e end killed me. arrrrrrrrr. walked ard orchard in it. not really ard orchard; but all over orchard & somerset to be precise. amputate me. euthanise me. arrrrrrrr.

met chuiwai at interchange today, its been such a long time... feel so old now. ah. went for a dinner at kenny rogers wif best fren regina, had a very very gd time reminiscing e past, our life in parkway junior college aka vjc... & how old we feel & how guys are morons & halfway she climbed under e table cos she dropped her earing, spent a long time down there, thot she got lost. reminded me of when we went shanghai & drank some cocktail, was disturbed by some mosquito & she climbed under e table (at the hotel, mind u) and clapped her hands to catch it. e manager came over with some spray. hahaha, so typical. sooooooo cute. anyway we were sitting ard & e grp of army recruits walked in oh poor poor guys & there was this guy rolling up his sleeve so he had to flex his arm & his arm was like ____ and i was like woooo i like i like i like. then i returned to our conversation & nodded intelligently. she will b my lifelong fren, we really are mutually connected. thx 4 everything (goodness, i sound like i'm dying).

anyway. today valerie (my supervisor) was nice.( hv to say tt as i unwittingly invited her here tho here got many of office mishaps; oh great, all abt our big bosses; AM & doris & goodness knows, nice valerie, kind valerie, good valerie, pls dun tell)cos she wanna read abt vincent ng (I LIKE). think she like also. anyway she was very sweet cos she gave me farewell gift cos i kenna transferred & 'condemned 2 4th floor'. read this : overworked but underpaid. haha, so anyway it was so so so pink. I LIKE. gave her a big flower pen thing, hope she likes. to rem me. and i bid farewell to my 'empire of files'. very proud of my empire; i close eyes can tell u where.actually i was apprehensive abt leaving everything (esp a certain LooCheeKok member whose case was there when i started, pending until the cus at cpf tampines left to go play in tekong, & now pending even as i leave. horrid man, shld sue him, try to Cheat Peoples' Fund (CPF) by insisting he din get his shares $) so anyway, such a notorious mbr has given us many headaches & laughs. haha.

valerie quite funny one, she manages to speak in a perpectually surprised voice, everytime she call me her tone like oh-i-hv-smth-very-exciting-to-tell-u kind, so tt's nice. always tell me where got sales. & coupons. & we discuss vincent ng. valerie (whom i called vanessa & vicky etc last time i cannot rem her name) also still in awe of mister lee (thunder & lightning). she suggest i go help him man his fridge in his room. not funny. anyway, yest mister lee (thunder & lightning) was sitting in front of valerie. oh wad nice scenery 4 her. but tt made him sitting perpectually near me. not funny. mountain mountain & i were talking abt us gg ask 'hey, y u sitting here' in ah-beng style. but e best was fm mountain; 'excuse me, are u chingsiew ( a very-woman AM)'. oh my goodness tt is so so crap. wonder whether they know they form e butt of our jokes. poor them. i digress. valerie has a perpetual rain cloud over her head. cos she fusses so when it rains, & it rains where eva she goes. she also 4eva saying 'oh, is it?' and 'oh enhui, i ask u' and 'so bad. u ah, so naughty' and 'oh no. so how' like dunno how many times a day. so very nice to poke fun. such nice supervisors (or even as a person) is hard to come by. so will miss her lor. sob sob. eating wise, we both like cream crackers. always care-&-share.

& i think she also like vincent ng. just dun wanna admit.

ok great. stuck in papa office. papa got meeting. papa work at Suntec & e view is like wow from up here. really great view. not like mine at CPF is a dried up bouquet of flowers, not mine unfortunately (or fortunately), haha. papa view is gd. would prefer it if it was overlooking some army camp tho. then can see little green men. WOO. I LIKE. anyway here suntec so got marvellous view of ECP & e bay. the bay is like full of boats. (ah crap, wad do u expect, full of cows?) and the ECP i like endless car lines meandering ard. all gg home. waaaa. can see a bit of jungle-jungle of east coast park. gone were the vjc days of gg small mac there & blade & stuff. i like. papa room is so so absolutely sound proof. i like. e wall is like, orange. they think they some modern art eh. anyway, think they need a graffiti artist here. so clean-like. YEEEE. papa got yucky plant here, half dead. and sitting next 2 watering-can twice its size. haha, damn pathetic. ah... i pluck e leaf of e plant. hahaha... die faster. (no i'm not sadistic, i'm just ending its misery). but i like killing things. anyway think i suggest to papa to put sofa for big flower to sit. might as well put a fridge too. and a tv. man, the orange wall is making me sick. eww. oh haha, a sick joke : e name dickson = son of a dick. hahahaha. sadist.

still in office. me bored. me bored. me bored. papa's personal assistant just walked in. i was drawing chickens on papa's little whiteboard. shit. i looked perfectly guilty. like pen in my hand. and oops. gave stupid grin. she gave stupid grin back & ask me pass papa his file. immaculate file. so not-me. maybe i tell papa she was e one drawing e chicken. think it'll work?

anyway, us 3 & whole of appeal team got 'dismissed' on tuesday. then us 3 got re-employed like two hours later. by sylvia. i like. (have always liked, and now still like, and next time will still like, and now like her even more). so think i am employed. still. should we say "yay"? in the words of fellow collegue mountain mountain aka shanshan, "Vat is the Vorld coming to my frenz". not funny to shock ppl.

mountain mountain my collegue called me ah hui in her blog again. i like. sounds ah-huay-ah-beng like vincent ng an-ay-kuan. lu zhai wa kong si me boh? boh zai wa kok lu ay ta-kak. u know wad i'm talking abt ? dunno i kok your head.

think i was born in the wrong era. shuld hv been smth like eleven hundred yrs A.D. and of course in england. (imagine in s.e.a. it'll be like oo-goo-ah-ga & get clubbed in e jungle) sigh. received some 'welcome to london' thingy in the mail today, and last wk a handbook on manchester. man, it = beckham. i am so gg there for post grad. so definitey. i digress. tune off linkin park and go medieval. btw, LP fans, a commentary in Life newspp last fri on LP; neah-neah if u missed it. i digress again. Great Britain. even the name sounds great, w/o e word great in it.

ok, eleven hundred AD; esteemed mbr of England's nobility, with an exotic name like Lady Ahhuilyn of Fallonmour. (haha, sounds like fall-on-mua : me) speak in my polished Norman tongue; smile at crusaders clad in royal blue & white. (now left to smile at ns men in jungle green & more green) men were gallant (nb: were), noble knights of valor; the epitome of both brains and brawn, the pride of all king's men. women just needed boobs & lots & lots of cloth. i would stand at my fort; no, my immense stone castle, (with a moat filled with piranas). see e knight in shining armour (cliche) got big muscles like vincent ng or not. e latter; let him go swim with the fishy-s. e former; smile at Sir crusader guy & say smth like 'greetings my lord, i bid u welcome to my humble abode' oh fie! when i hv acres & acres of land, and garrisons & such. think norman tongue wun b as bad as jiang-hua-yu. but they din hv linkin park yet. (not to mention vincent ng; in fact if vince were 2walk ard topless think it'll b deemed politically-incorrect & death by hanging / smth) it'll b perpetual 92.4 not funny. to live but a day... Vun day my kingsmen, Vun day.